Sadness And Sorrow

I'm having mood swings again.

Yeah...I'm kinda sick of my mood swinging self as well. Wish it would just go away...

Here I was packing my stuff, and I came across a note, something she wrote after I got her a birthday present. Don't know whether to feel happy to see the note unscathed...or to feel sad that I'm starting to miss her again, despite my decision to stop thinking about her...

This is the ironic part. I've stated that I'll forget about her, let go of the thoughts about her after I had that dream, and here I am still yet able to do so. I thought I'll be fine...but I'm not.

Perhaps I've seen too much couples these recent days compared to the past? Nah...can't blame the number of couples in this world. It's their freedom mah. Whatever I'm thinking is just my own freaking opinion. Tch...as if I can change the world with what I'm thinking...

Anyway...my ass itched and so I decided to watch Naruto, Kakashi VS Zabuza that few episodes before the maple server is open. Damn random lah...dunno why I suddenly have the urge to watch that episode. Maybe because I want to see Zabuza kick Gatto's puny stinking ass?

Who cares...

Then there is this music which is played when Zabuza was dying next to Haku, it blends PERFECTLY into my mood.

I've listened to that song before because I have it in my com, but for the first time from the moment I have downloaded that song till now, I figured that this music is a really, really beautiful piece.

Found a piano version of the music in Youtube...it's equally beautiful...



Don't blame me for blogging emo posts again...ok blame me if you want...but not that I care about it. But I believe for as long as I live, my mood swings along with my emo ego will live on as well...

Oh yeah...today never train until 4th job...server damn lag. Sian......