For the first time in dunno-how-long...I felt that I'm a thorough loser...
I've always thought that I'm up for any challenges. I've even adopted a "take no bullshit" philosophy...however, today I've only seen my pathetic side.
A teacher caught me for something. Normally, I thought that I would just confront him/her and sort things out. But what I did today is total contrary to my resolve...I looked on at him as he exited the school, but I didn't walk up to him and reason things out.
I'm at fault perhaps...but on a second thought, I'm not really in any wrong.
I didn't realize what happened until a period of time passed. I've betrayed my philosophy to take no bullshit and shall reason things out whether I'm in the right or wrong or neutral...in the end, I just let him slipped past thinking that I'm definitely in the wrong...
Such a fucking wimp...and the utmost failure...
Now that I think of it...I've never actually succeeded in doing well in a lot of things...
Academic results...
Relationships. Be it family, friends or love...
Horrible failures that reflected only how weak I am. I thought I'm someone who could easily take on challenges, regardless whether they are good or bad...it looks like all I saw today is my rotten guts...
Why did someone like me even exist in the first place...I really wonder...
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Basara overdose...
Yet again...I'm unable to sleep. I've been drifting in and out of my slumber for the pass few hours...having these "feverish dreams"...
Ya know when you are sleeping with a fever, and you tend to dream with things that preoccupied you the most, probably things that you like...things that you're very involved with before you rest. Despite them being dreams with topics of your interest...there's like a small sense of......
Discomfort...
Confusion...
And like I mentioned before, you will keep drifting in and out of your sleep...I dunno if it's intentional or not, but damn I'm doing it...
Me...perhaps I've been TOO into Sengoku Basara recently...an anime based on the real warring states that took place in ancient Japan. It's the time of samurais and shoguns and seppukus...however the anime, of course, are portrayed in a more fantasy way with attacks that calls forth typhoon and brightly shone aura...typical anime elements.
The very character which I first took notice of is Akechi Mitsuhide...another MS (Masochistic + Sadistic) freak.
De? See the reason why he caught my attention. Yup...long flowing white hair, one of the best used elements to depict a villain...along with those sinister sickles, and the pale skin which added a slight tinge of undeadness to the character.
I prefer this form compared to his Samurai Warriors/Musou Orochi game counterpart...which is more gentlemanly with black hair rather than white, and wielding a katana instead of 2 sickles which reaps life...in other words, he's more human in those games...
Well...guys like him are always the reason why I watch anime. Because people of that category normally deals and all-out carnage and enjoyed them.
Anyways...I've been having flashes of him inside my mind every now and then...I dunno if those are part of my dream, but I sure do feel a lil feverish then. But I'm fine now that I'm up...so yeah, he's like the one responsible for giving me fever dreams and booted me out of bed...
So don't get yourself too involved in any business just before you got to sleep. You mights just burn up...
Ya know when you are sleeping with a fever, and you tend to dream with things that preoccupied you the most, probably things that you like...things that you're very involved with before you rest. Despite them being dreams with topics of your interest...there's like a small sense of......
Discomfort...
Confusion...
And like I mentioned before, you will keep drifting in and out of your sleep...I dunno if it's intentional or not, but damn I'm doing it...
Me...perhaps I've been TOO into Sengoku Basara recently...an anime based on the real warring states that took place in ancient Japan. It's the time of samurais and shoguns and seppukus...however the anime, of course, are portrayed in a more fantasy way with attacks that calls forth typhoon and brightly shone aura...typical anime elements.
The very character which I first took notice of is Akechi Mitsuhide...another MS (Masochistic + Sadistic) freak.
De? See the reason why he caught my attention. Yup...long flowing white hair, one of the best used elements to depict a villain...along with those sinister sickles, and the pale skin which added a slight tinge of undeadness to the character.
I prefer this form compared to his Samurai Warriors/Musou Orochi game counterpart...which is more gentlemanly with black hair rather than white, and wielding a katana instead of 2 sickles which reaps life...in other words, he's more human in those games...
Well...guys like him are always the reason why I watch anime. Because people of that category normally deals and all-out carnage and enjoyed them.
Anyways...I've been having flashes of him inside my mind every now and then...I dunno if those are part of my dream, but I sure do feel a lil feverish then. But I'm fine now that I'm up...so yeah, he's like the one responsible for giving me fever dreams and booted me out of bed...
So don't get yourself too involved in any business just before you got to sleep. You mights just burn up...
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Silent Rebellion
Despite this being the holidays, I could hardly find any reasons to blog. Since there's like...nothing of interest going on around here.
Well...there are, not positives ones however. But damn...I can't always vent my frustrations on this blog...for it doesn't change the fact that I'm still a loser...
As I mentioned before, if you waged war with your parents, you're destined to lose no matter how much you are able to speak up for yourself. Neither does it matter even if you managed to shut em up. So long you fight back, in other people's eyes, they would mostly condemn you for talking back to your parents...
In my case, the ole' lady would always end the war with lines that would not only make me the loser, but also a full-fledged sinner...you wouldn't feel good after listening to em.
So now, I sought another way out. Dunno if it would ever work then, but I'm gonna give it a try...for she's one tough woman I can ever wage war with...
Just remain silent and don't give a damn about anything but yourself.
Well, it worked to a certain extent, it looked as if nothing happened today when I woke up...life went on like it did before. Amazing, ain't it. Hell, I surely don't enjoy quarreling with her, due to the absolute accuracy of the quote, "Wage war against parents, and thee shalt lose".
Surely, I don't like to lose, in most aspects...let alone a fight. Too bad, I'm not that good with verbal fights. Only physical fights can allow me to truly enjoy the fun...
But no matter no matter, I shall take it that the events that took place for the past few days as the last of any disputes...for I'm seriously sick of losing...yup, that's the reason enough I think...
Well...there are, not positives ones however. But damn...I can't always vent my frustrations on this blog...for it doesn't change the fact that I'm still a loser...
As I mentioned before, if you waged war with your parents, you're destined to lose no matter how much you are able to speak up for yourself. Neither does it matter even if you managed to shut em up. So long you fight back, in other people's eyes, they would mostly condemn you for talking back to your parents...
In my case, the ole' lady would always end the war with lines that would not only make me the loser, but also a full-fledged sinner...you wouldn't feel good after listening to em.
So now, I sought another way out. Dunno if it would ever work then, but I'm gonna give it a try...for she's one tough woman I can ever wage war with...
Just remain silent and don't give a damn about anything but yourself.
Well, it worked to a certain extent, it looked as if nothing happened today when I woke up...life went on like it did before. Amazing, ain't it. Hell, I surely don't enjoy quarreling with her, due to the absolute accuracy of the quote, "Wage war against parents, and thee shalt lose".
Surely, I don't like to lose, in most aspects...let alone a fight. Too bad, I'm not that good with verbal fights. Only physical fights can allow me to truly enjoy the fun...
But no matter no matter, I shall take it that the events that took place for the past few days as the last of any disputes...for I'm seriously sick of losing...yup, that's the reason enough I think...
Saturday, June 06, 2009
Happy 1 year old, Tiffany!
Celebrated Tiffany's first birthday in some restaurant in Shaw Center a couple of hours ago. Gotta admit it...it's kinda ulu there...
It's like located at a dead end after a long passageway where both sides are shops (that are closed)...pardon me if it's nothing surprising, it's my first time at Shaw Center, and I don't think I have to say why is it so...
Anyways, the main event of the evening is of course celebrating my niece's first birthday.
Allow the pictures to speak on my behalf...luckily I didn't rashly delete the photos this time round...
The ke-ki...
The birthday gal...
Grandmother and granddaughter...
Happy family...
Happy birthday, Tiffany! Your uncle's looking forward to you being able to greet him soon.
It's like located at a dead end after a long passageway where both sides are shops (that are closed)...pardon me if it's nothing surprising, it's my first time at Shaw Center, and I don't think I have to say why is it so...
Anyways, the main event of the evening is of course celebrating my niece's first birthday.
Allow the pictures to speak on my behalf...luckily I didn't rashly delete the photos this time round...
The ke-ki...
The birthday gal...
Grandmother and granddaughter...
Happy family...
Happy birthday, Tiffany! Your uncle's looking forward to you being able to greet him soon.
Monday, June 01, 2009
Congratulations, Nick and Clara!
First and foremost, congratulations to Nick and Clara biao jie for tying the knot, at the same time, happy birthday to Clara as well...
Wish you both a blissful marriage and may you bear loads of children. I dunno if you both will ever see this, but damn...I'll just put it up here, hoping that you might pass by here some day in the future and see this message.
Bo bian lah...I shy mah. People marriage not really my business, but it still reminds me of my failed first love...and to make matters even better, the waitress serving our table looks like "somebody" to a certain extent sia.
I was like...win liao loh...
Tch...no matter, best wishes to you both!
Unfortunately, due to my finger quickness far surpassing my cerebral processing speed, I accidentally deleted most of the pictures in my phone while marking them...
I hate it whenever that happens...
These are all that's remained...
AND~~~
Apparently, I'm having problems with Imeem playing songs on my blog. I can't help it when the song suddenly got cut into just a 30 seconds "preview". So I took it down for now, until I can solve that problem...
Ok time for school...
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Sista! Gambatte ne!
Wish you both a blissful marriage and may you bear loads of children. I dunno if you both will ever see this, but damn...I'll just put it up here, hoping that you might pass by here some day in the future and see this message.
Bo bian lah...I shy mah. People marriage not really my business, but it still reminds me of my failed first love...and to make matters even better, the waitress serving our table looks like "somebody" to a certain extent sia.
I was like...win liao loh...
Tch...no matter, best wishes to you both!
Unfortunately, due to my finger quickness far surpassing my cerebral processing speed, I accidentally deleted most of the pictures in my phone while marking them...
I hate it whenever that happens...
These are all that's remained...
AND~~~
Apparently, I'm having problems with Imeem playing songs on my blog. I can't help it when the song suddenly got cut into just a 30 seconds "preview". So I took it down for now, until I can solve that problem...
Ok time for school...
*****
****
***
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Sista! Gambatte ne!
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