Just thought that I should post something during the last day of 2009...just for the sake of my cute lil archive hidden somewhere in this blog where nobody...not even me will ever bother to visit.
Well, and on a side note, I'm still managing to survive the waves of module invasion, and Story would most probably be the coup de grace amongst those accursed attacks from different modules, due to my cliche story with many loopholes and imperfections whereby only graphics and dialogues (something which I lack as well...) can probably remedy the situation by a lil bit.
So basically...yeah, I'm screwed again...
Luckily I'm just screwed by 1 module...for now. Though it's a rather bad thing already...
OK that's all for my last update of 2009. Wish all of you out there a happy new year where your wishes will only be glanced through and cast down the drains by your respective higher powers...
2012's great. The effects will definitely hook you up, since no human has ever seen devastation like those in the movies...
It might very well be what will happen at year 2012, but I for one, like some others, don't really count on that. IF, it should really happen, then all I can do is to curse and swear at the heavens and hells...and brace myself for the next bumpy ride.
Everything's good. Plenty of devastation and destruction, just the way I liked it, and needless to say, countless souls fell victim to those merciless waves of catastrophic events...
Overall, I enjoyed the movie due to the fact that I can never successfully deliver something of that magnitude in After Effects...
After many hardships, many days of agony...my new psp has returned home. My bad management sent it right into slumber and needed emergency help which I tried to seek for days...
Initially, it seems as if I'm gonna lose another psp, this time even sooner...but luckily, I revived it, and now it's back at where it belongs.
I told many today that I'm gonna spend the rest of the night with Sephy today since my save data is not really the most up to date and I have plenty to catch up.
Just wanna say Happy Halloween to all souls out there celebrating, and a Happy Birthday to Angeline, whose party is one of the best I've ever attended...maybe cause I didn't attend many parties held in big homes with many friends like such, but it's fun nonetheless.
Great times is all I can say. The food's good, the cake's good, the people are good and the events are good as well...except for the weather. Unfortunately, I'm getting pretty lazy with pictures, thus none is taken on my phone.
So, thanks for inviting me and Happy Birthday again, Angeline!
The lost of my beloved psp no doubt struck me deep, but however, a turning point is right ahead. I shall own a new psp, and this time, piano black.
Damn am I glad about it.
Well...despite all the negative responses and loads of bitching and whining, I guess she's still one great woman who can shut me up with the things I need. I respect her for that...
No matter, tomorrow is the only Monday thus far I'm kinda looking forward to very much.
Just to show the ending of Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence as reference to my last 2nd post. This movie has received lots of positive comments. I haven't really watched it, but I believe it's worth watching.
The Japanese doesn't speak perfect English, but I think they're understandable, and there's no reason to jeer at how much accent he carries when he speaks.
Really love how the music plays as it's ending...
On the eve of his execution, Hara bids Lawrence a final farewell, and a Merry Christmas...
Disclosed to my mum about my lost psp and got a rather negative response. It's not all that surprising...but I'm still disappointed. I can't really work under such circumstances...and speaking of work, my (ex)boss has yet to even reply my messages and calls.
Saving money to buy 1 would take me about 2 months or even more and I can already tell that it's not gonna be easy.
Even 2nd hands are pretty costly...and you need to bid for it. Eventually the bill may surpass it's original price should there be any desperate bidders. Besides, I never really trust 2nd hands that much for I'm not sure what it went through and if anything was done to it.
Paranoid I may be, but I'm not gonna let my desperation get the better of me just yet.
I didn't expect that my next update is yet another moody post. Not that I want it, but I have nowhere else to voice em out, and Facebook doesn't really have a blogging function...perhaps I don't know it but here is my best bet.
Hell it's useless to speak to my mum anyways...
Only 1 year and 8 months old, my psp had already left me. I didn't even know where it went eventually. Someone might have picked it up...if it's so, I just hope that the new owner will be able to use it with more care. I may have mistreated my psp time and time again, but I can't go on without it. Now my only hope to recover it is to pray that I dropped it at the lecture theatre today. Nobody spotted it and I didn't look hard enough in between the gaps.
Or someone would have spotted it but handed it over to the lost and found section where consulting sessions are super limited unlike that admin office.
Those 2 are my last bet...
Should I still unable to recover my psp, all I can say is farewell and rest in peace, for no matter whoever picked it up, it won't be me, and the chances of bumping into it in this small country is rather scarce...
You will always be my first psp and you will be dearly missed, Ph3nom/D3@dm@n...I can't remember which nickname I used for my psp since I change it occasionally.
I therefore dedicate the current blog song, Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence, piano mix as a eulogy...like how Hara wished Lawrence a Merry Christmas before his execution the next day...it's the same mood.
A possible eternal parting...
And a lil something extra, to my still and ever lil sister, Adabelle:
I dunno what Ms Gail said to ya, but fret not, for Kiato-chan will always be by your side, so will the rest of your peers, whom I strongly believe will never leave you alone to wither in your own negative emotions. Of course, I will gladly be part of those peers rooting for ya.
I've posted about me being a failure...and I hoped that after so long, I would have been better. However...I'm not all that better off 2 months later...
Blog hiatus for 2 months after a certain event...meanwhile, I did some self-reflection on myself. Recalling events that had taken place in the past. The bad, the worse and the worst...I've done em all. They are no big crimes...but what I've done was far more unpardonable than murder and arson...
It's been years and I can't shake this matter off my mind. I realized that the trauma that led me to those doings is not exactly a compelling reason for me to be excused. Despite my remorse and endless apologies, I know that somewhere in this world...I'm not fully forgiven...
For 2 months...I laid on my back and think back of all my sins on one end, and trying to enjoy myself as much as possible on the other...juggling so much emotions everyday at every time ain't an easy feat and damn I'm not doing it well...
It's until recently that I realized more that I'm definitely hated by many...or at the very least, I'm not needed around anymore. I can't seem to find a place to really blend in...I'm not implying anybody to like "take me in like a puppy-in-a-basket outside your door"...it's my own issue.
It's mixed emotions...
Here and there, I wished to be at both ends...but eventually, I'm at neither...I tried to be a good friend and wanna be there for anybody, but my presence only brought more awkwardness...which is felt by many including myself...
Am I being paranoid? Or perhaps I'm right...
I'm not sure...
Looks like this 2 months did more harm than good to my soul from the way I see it...
For the first time in dunno-how-long...I felt that I'm a thorough loser...
I've always thought that I'm up for any challenges. I've even adopted a "take no bullshit" philosophy...however, today I've only seen my pathetic side.
A teacher caught me for something. Normally, I thought that I would just confront him/her and sort things out. But what I did today is total contrary to my resolve...I looked on at him as he exited the school, but I didn't walk up to him and reason things out.
I'm at fault perhaps...but on a second thought, I'm not really in any wrong.
I didn't realize what happened until a period of time passed. I've betrayed my philosophy to take no bullshit and shall reason things out whether I'm in the right or wrong or neutral...in the end, I just let him slipped past thinking that I'm definitely in the wrong...
Such a fucking wimp...and the utmost failure...
Now that I think of it...I've never actually succeeded in doing well in a lot of things...
Academic results...
Relationships. Be it family, friends or love...
Horrible failures that reflected only how weak I am. I thought I'm someone who could easily take on challenges, regardless whether they are good or bad...it looks like all I saw today is my rotten guts...
Why did someone like me even exist in the first place...I really wonder...
Yet again...I'm unable to sleep. I've been drifting in and out of my slumber for the pass few hours...having these "feverish dreams"...
Ya know when you are sleeping with a fever, and you tend to dream with things that preoccupied you the most, probably things that you like...things that you're very involved with before you rest. Despite them being dreams with topics of your interest...there's like a small sense of......
Discomfort...
Confusion...
And like I mentioned before, you will keep drifting in and out of your sleep...I dunno if it's intentional or not, but damn I'm doing it...
Me...perhaps I've been TOO into Sengoku Basara recently...an anime based on the real warring states that took place in ancient Japan. It's the time of samurais and shoguns and seppukus...however the anime, of course, are portrayed in a more fantasy way with attacks that calls forth typhoon and brightly shone aura...typical anime elements.
The very character which I first took notice of is Akechi Mitsuhide...another MS (Masochistic + Sadistic) freak.
De? See the reason why he caught my attention. Yup...long flowing white hair, one of the best used elements to depict a villain...along with those sinister sickles, and the pale skin which added a slight tinge of undeadness to the character.
I prefer this form compared to his Samurai Warriors/Musou Orochi game counterpart...which is more gentlemanly with black hair rather than white, and wielding a katana instead of 2 sickles which reaps life...in other words, he's more human in those games...
Well...guys like him are always the reason why I watch anime. Because people of that category normally deals and all-out carnage and enjoyed them.
Anyways...I've been having flashes of him inside my mind every now and then...I dunno if those are part of my dream, but I sure do feel a lil feverish then. But I'm fine now that I'm up...so yeah, he's like the one responsible for giving me fever dreams and booted me out of bed...
So don't get yourself too involved in any business just before you got to sleep. You mights just burn up...
Despite this being the holidays, I could hardly find any reasons to blog. Since there's like...nothing of interest going on around here.
Well...there are, not positives ones however. But damn...I can't always vent my frustrations on this blog...for it doesn't change the fact that I'm still a loser...
As I mentioned before, if you waged war with your parents, you're destined to lose no matter how much you are able to speak up for yourself. Neither does it matter even if you managed to shut em up. So long you fight back, in other people's eyes, they would mostly condemn you for talking back to your parents...
In my case, the ole' lady would always end the war with lines that would not only make me the loser, but also a full-fledged sinner...you wouldn't feel good after listening to em.
So now, I sought another way out. Dunno if it would ever work then, but I'm gonna give it a try...for she's one tough woman I can ever wage war with...
Just remain silent and don't give a damn about anything but yourself.
Well, it worked to a certain extent, it looked as if nothing happened today when I woke up...life went on like it did before. Amazing, ain't it. Hell, I surely don't enjoy quarreling with her, due to the absolute accuracy of the quote, "Wage war against parents, and thee shalt lose".
Surely, I don't like to lose, in most aspects...let alone a fight. Too bad, I'm not that good with verbal fights. Only physical fights can allow me to truly enjoy the fun...
But no matter no matter, I shall take it that the events that took place for the past few days as the last of any disputes...for I'm seriously sick of losing...yup, that's the reason enough I think...
Celebrated Tiffany's first birthday in some restaurant in Shaw Center a couple of hours ago. Gotta admit it...it's kinda ulu there...
It's like located at a dead end after a long passageway where both sides are shops (that are closed)...pardon me if it's nothing surprising, it's my first time at Shaw Center, and I don't think I have to say why is it so...
Anyways, the main event of the evening is of course celebrating my niece's first birthday.
Allow the pictures to speak on my behalf...luckily I didn't rashly delete the photos this time round...
The ke-ki...
The birthday gal...
Grandmother and granddaughter...
Happy family...
Happy birthday, Tiffany! Your uncle's looking forward to you being able to greet him soon.
First and foremost, congratulations to Nick and Clara biao jie for tying the knot, at the same time, happy birthday to Clara as well...
Wish you both a blissful marriage and may you bear loads of children. I dunno if you both will ever see this, but damn...I'll just put it up here, hoping that you might pass by here some day in the future and see this message.
Bo bian lah...I shy mah. People marriage not really my business, but it still reminds me of my failed first love...and to make matters even better, the waitress serving our table looks like "somebody" to a certain extent sia.
I was like...win liao loh...
Tch...no matter, best wishes to you both!
Unfortunately, due to my finger quickness far surpassing my cerebral processing speed, I accidentally deleted most of the pictures in my phone while marking them...
I hate it whenever that happens...
These are all that's remained...
AND~~~
Apparently, I'm having problems with Imeem playing songs on my blog. I can't help it when the song suddenly got cut into just a 30 seconds "preview". So I took it down for now, until I can solve that problem...
Just done watching Final Fantasy VII Advent Children Complete. Note that it's a newer and better version of Advent Children...
Basically, it's just some more new scenes, more action and more story told...most importantly, the final battle between Sephiroth and Cloud has intensified. There's rarely any blood spilled except on Sephiroth's Masamune after he stabbed Cloud in the shoulder in the previous version.
But in the current version...ho ho, oh brother.
Impalement after impalement...cuts after cuts...each swing of the Masamune draws blood from Cloud's fair, delicate skin...blood oozing out of the wounds and splatters all around him as Cloud hits the ground.
Boy, am I enjoying this...
Sephy's definitely gotten more bad ass from the previous installment. He even took on his "winged-angel form" for more elegant moves. The fight's an epic win...
However, despite this being a newer version of the movie, the traditional rule of "Good will triumph over Evil" has not been abolished. Apparently, people still prefer happy ending eh? Not me, that's for sure...
It has always been like this...the villains are definitely stronger than the protagonists...but to portray that goody-goodies always wins, the villains are FORCED to lose because the protagonists will receive a sudden burst of strength out of something as minute as a piece of PowerPoint slide show of the protagonists' friends and family pictures at the end despite being mortally wounded or even dead...
Ah no matter...I'm glad Sephy's attained new heights with his new arsenal of swordsmanship...
Oh and I gotta give Reno and Rude credit too...they've gotten more screen time...I think...and needless to say, more comedy. Although it's a shame that they took away the scene when Reno climbed the building to help out Rufus, but the new scenes sure made up for the removed ones...
Unfortunately, no videos up here yet since there ain't no decent piece of video uploaded yet, but I'll keep an eye out for em...
A batsu game (punishment "game") featuring Yamazaki Hosei.
This poor guy is supposed to play piano in the dead of the night at a school...abandoned or not...I dunno. Haunted or not, I'm not too sure either. However, a school's definitely one of the worst place you can ever visit at the deepest of nights.
So Yamazaki's gotta walk all the way from his 1st floor "suite", up till level 4 to where the music room is, which held nothing but a lone piano in the center of the room...
Of course, traps are installed along the way...
The problem is...he's gotta walk through the same corridors 4 separate times due to the fact that he had to play 4 different pieces of melodies at an hour interval. And not to mention different traps are utilized every single time...though 1 or 2 might still remain. So yeah...very unfortunate, but it's fun to watch...
Just in case there's some enigmatic surprises...I'll try my best to describe what are the traps laid down for poor ole' Yamazaki...
1st attempt:
1. There's this sign that says: "Meeting in process, please keep quiet." (A meeting in the middle of the night...what else could that mean...)
2. Random sounds just pops out of the wall...
3. The elevator shall move...
2nd attempt:
1. An old soul shall be on patrol...
2. Sound of glass shatter...
3. Lotion applied onto the door handle of the music room...
4. Piano keys had trouble producing sounds...
3rd attempt:
1. Cries of a woman coming from within the toilet...
2. A pair of twins in kimono will be stalking Yamazaki. (This part is the best in my opinion...it gave the most kick to anyone who ventured beyond the point in person...and see of you can notice that one of the lil girl jumped at Yamazaki's screams...)
3. Farting cushion...
4. Secret #1...
4th attempt:
1. Blood on piano keys...
2. Secret #2...
Well, those are based on what I know about Japanese characters. As for the 2 secrets, I merely noted them down as the video stated...so you shall be kept from the secret until you've watched it...and on a side note, this is the video which allowed me to discover Merry Christmas, Mr Lawrence...
Ok without further ado, lemme present Yamazaki Hosei's Piano Recital...
I can't help it but admire this piece of music playing as my current blog song now.
It consisted of no vocals...at least for this version, but it's THE melody that even evil souls find peace within...magically delicious. It's a super-duper-old-ancient piece since it's like out during the 1980s. Not all that far off, but it's like 10 years before my birth...thus I shall categorize it under "OLD". But this vintage melody didn't give me that impression upon first listening, and I'd say that I'm lucky enough to have bumped into this music.
I mean it has even surpassed my previous lullaby, which I believed to be one of the best all time classic. The theme of this melody, in my opinion is like...so "crystal" and "glacier" . I can't really describe em, but those 2 words are how I felt when I listened to the music...
Another piece of music added to my cerebral archive of favorable audio files, I guess...tru-ly bea-u-ti-ful...
Song: Merry Christmas, Mr Lawrence Artist: Sakamoto Ryuichi
Finally...after such a long period of time, my foot has recovered. Well, almost actually, for it is still kinda stiff...
This lil sprain took me the longest amount of time I've ever needed to recover...compared to my long history of other issues of sprained ankles, busted elbows and over-twisted abdomen. But no matter no matter, I shall be in fighting shape soon enough.
Other than being not able to flex and land heavily on my foot, I think I'm pretty much ready to carry on with my 18 years odyssey, since there's gonna be one less issue to preoccupy me...
Nothing much...just thought that it's been a while since I last sprained my ankle and had it swelled like a pig's trotter...
But then again...this pain is not what a masochist would normally enjoy for it greatly...and I mean GREATLY hinders your movements...I've been walking around as if something's up my ass and though I can't see it, I strongly believe that I look awfully queer when I walk and strut and limp and hop...
No matter, try ta spot the difference!
Well...it's not that difficult to spot it, right? However, if you really can't see what the hell is wrong, the following image shall be your answer of the lifetime...
A belated happy 18th birthday to lil Addy-belle...
Hope that you've enjoyed the lil celebration and the anytime-anywhere-choir whose members just keep abruptly bursting out the birthday song in high to low pitch and of fairly high magnitude...
And sorry, I could have been more into it if my ankle had not been sprained on the way.
Anyways, really hope that you'd like the lil cushion a.k.a pillow a.k.a anything that comes into your mind. Oh, by the way, should you suddenly have the urge for gores...like Friday The 13th, I don't mind watching it again with ya and your peers, that is if you don't mind my presence that is...
Again, tanjobi omedeto gozaimasu!
And to Shan...don't worry too much. These ordeals will eventually boost man's physical resistance and immunities. So just look forward to his recovery, and enjoy having a stronger soul standing by ya.
Lastly, thank you to everybody for inviting me over, also thank you guys for your concern and help to ease my swell just hours ago...and Angeline's dad for footing the bill, though it's kinda pai seh for ya to pay for us when you're a "special" guest.
Well, that's how I see it, for he made a surprise appearance.
That's all for now, I guess. Everybody, cares and cheers!
Well...first of all, it's a fine day with fluffy white clouds in the vast blue piece of dunno-what called the sky...
A 18 years old shonen headed on to school...
With his black Nike bag...
Black Nike shoes...
Black Giordano shirt...
Some random 3/4 pants...
And a big, budget, "slightly more than A2" folder...
He went in to his drawing class, and all went pretty smoothly, for the lecturer's a nice guy, and the shonen didn't really screw many things up...at least he hopes so...
Next, he went to do Maya...
Soon, he was alone again...
He then dragged he's carcass all the way down to MacDonald...finished his food in solitude...and next, headed for the library. He stayed in the library from 1500+ to 1825...killing time by drawing another character...
Evening came, and he went for some kendo orientation, for he strongly believed that he found himself a place where he belongs...
Hell is he wrong...
The sparring part did excite him a LOT...and it shall be the most fun thing that will ever occur to him should he take part in it. But the rest of the orientation is what he didn't expect, though they are necessary.
No battojutsu...
No hirazuki...
No gatotsu......DUH?! It'll be impressive if one would be able to perform, let alone landing it on anybody. But the shonen would LOVE to learn how to utilize it, probably other sword techniques as well...
Unfortunately, those are beyond the kendo club's arsenal...
At the same time, the family of the shonen is having another old school uproar once again, making it almost impossible......make that LITERALLY impossible to raise the matter to his family...
So yeah...it kinda suck...
I guess it's for the better, so the shonen can go back and focus on his MMA obsessions...be it professional or freestyle...
But these bunch of Japanese are different...for they fart for what they eat. Sounds gross? Well...it's just a game, so it's not such a BIG deal after all...
For those not seeing any subtitles appearing, simply move your mouse cursor over to the button at the bottom-right hand corner, and check the button with "CC" on it...
That is if you're interested in watching the video...
Discretion: Occasional obscenity ahead. View it at your ow risk...
*Just a random note, the videos above were narrated by Tachiki Fumihiko-san, who's the seiyuu a.k.a voice actor for one of my favorite anime characters, Zaraki Kenpachi. =D
Just when I thought my body clock's readjusting back......
No matter...needless to say, I believe most of ya, if not all, should know under which genre of games Fatal Frame falls under.
Souls who have experienced playing the game, be it a veteran or just running around the map and escape whatever you encounter, regardless if it's a malice apparition or Casper's Japan counterpart...you should know how does it feel to play the game.
Tense...
Excited...
On guard...
Expected to see something but nothing's there...
Something pops up when you least expect it...
The game's perfect for all to play, I'm telling ya. I hate to admit it, but when I first played it, I kinda...
DAMN!
Courtesy of Jun who jioed me in while staying over at Daniel's house...it's more than 2 years...but I can still remember how I felt then...
It's not so bad to play it with your friends, but to play it alone in the dead of the night...you're in for a wild ride...
I suddenly had the urge to play the game despite knowing that I'll jump time and time again while playing. Unfortunately, I don't have the platform, nor the game...so I decided to satisfy myself by watching some videos to freak myself out...
Well....
I have no problems finding the videos...
But the problem is, the game cracks me up rather than scaring me. No, no...not that the game play is no longer good, it's the player who's responsible...
He seriously busted the supposedly tense and dark ambiance...but nobody's gonna blame him for it. In fact, everybody enjoyed it, including me...
It's better to see for yourself...
But I must warn you...heavy profanity ahead...and best watched in the middle of the night...all alone...in the darkness......
The next one's gonna be rather short, but sorta effective...
I liked the screams in here the best...it's as if he's turned loony...
See the reason why a horror game makes me laugh in the middle of the night now? But my thirst for some horror has yet to diminish...at least for now...
If you find me lame to laugh at those things...you have no laughing bone...
Ok, it's kinda screwing up your audio output. But damn, it sure hell is fun watching him play...you won't find players like him around often. I'd say it's a privilege to hear his hoarse screams and his comical way of playing the scariest game to date...
Done watching the videos, I wish thou souls to sleep tight...and I mean TIGHT...for you never know what might reach out it's malicious claws upon your neck...
Finally done drawing my 1st character in a long time...which took me weeks. And it's not all that nice...for pencil marks and slight tears are visible around it...
Com-pu-lit-to-ly no mood whatsoever...
If this keeps up, it's gonna spell my doom for the next semester...
A woman, Susan Boyle attained fame almost instantly with her powerful voice...not only in Britain's Got Talent, but all around the world. On 1st look, a 40+ years old lady like her would expect people to think of a typical, simple housewife. But never would one ever expect that this typical housewife, whose dream was to be in the same league (or further) as Elaine Paige, received a standing ovation upon singing...and most importantly, stunned all in attendance, including the 3 judges...the very same bunch of souls whom I strongly believed that they're gonna see a joke of the century...
Well, I won't deny...I'm a lil skeptical about how good her singing is on first glance. Hey, I'm not a singing person, nor do I know the qualities to sing well, but I do know what is comfortable to your ears.
...and she sure busted me for that...
When Susan speaks of her dream and aspirations, camera cuts everywhere around the auditorium and showed faces saying, "What the f*ck?!". Now now, you know who you are...
But she certainly changed everybody's opinion 540 degrees. Who the hell would still jeer such a splendid voice. Well, I dunno about the guys who said she was lip-syncing, but I definitely...well, lemme quote what Amanda Holden said...
"That was the biggest wake-up call ever..."
Let's assume she's really lip-syncing, then you gotta give her credit for doing it so darn well, and hell...I would say it's flawless...so until then, I say that her singing is for REAL...
DAMN!
I mean even Simon Cowell couldn't lay a finger on that one. And you certainly see how destructive Susan's singing is when Amanda's eyes got all teary...maybe it's the quality of the video on Youtube...but until someone proves me otherwise, I'm gonna say Susan's voice moved Amanda Holden big time...
Simply unbelievable...a must watch for all even if you're not a fan of "Idol" and "Got Talent" shows like me...
If you're looking for the video here...lemme tell ya, I don't have it. Why? Because embedding has been disabled by request...and yes, all of em. But I'll be nice enough to provide you guys the link:
The timetable for the next semester is finalized, and the very time slot that caught my attention is on Thursday...the day which I thought shall be an off-day since it's so damn empty from morning to afternoon.
BUT!
As I scroll down, I realized that my classes are punched in from 1800 to 2100.
Damn am I "lucky"...
I'm not saying that I should have any privileges that shall exclude me from any night classes...I don't mind staying in school until night falls or even midnight for that matter, but to have lessons at night kinda pose a problem for me...for I'm not someone who can focus well during night time...
And I hate to admit it...my body clock is slowly tuning back. Thus, I'm no longer the extreme nocturnal type anymore...for now that is...I mean I didn't really did it intentionally. Lately I just got tired at night, and before I know it...
DAMN!
Ah no matter...
Tomorrow shall be another fine day, for I shall be going back to school and meeting up with the clique. The lecture however, is not my main concern tomorrow, since...ya know...I just wanna meet my friends.
Sounds hypocritical...but hell true...
I mean...you never know...we're gonna be in different classes after all. Ya dig?
I'm SOOO~~~ darn glad that the Karakura-Riser filler has ended...now, back to topic and start kicking arrancars around, releasing zanpakuto, getting kicked in the arse, blow a knee up, bite some wind, blow HuecoMundo into smithereens and finally throw the entire world into the bottomless chasm of desperation and hopelessness...
No doubt...the streak is still intact, and Michaels is the 17th soul that shall be sleeping within the 17th grave in Undertaker's Wresltemania graveyard.
Taker's the man I always root for, but I, or should I say all wrestling fans, appreciate what both of these men did - giving one helluva show.
What's next? Come on...it's time for a long term world title reign...
Seems impossible to get...but I like it regardless of it's rare status, and would gladly own it. However, despite there being many miracle workers in this world, I doubt I can find anybody who's THAT willing to even try working on that thing in this country...or all over the world for that matter...JUST FOR THE SAKE OF ME!
But hell. It's one of the finest cape I've ever seen. Not because Taker worn it before, but the chest plate and chains and stuff makes it so goth that I just like it as myself rather than liking it as a Taker fanatic...
Got my hands on 3 different versions of remixes of Heart Of Sword. Similar for most parts...but definitely better than the original in the other parts.
I prefer the remix playing as my blog song now to the other 2 remixes...despite the fact that it kinda sounded as if the audio output is screwed...
Anyway...
Just got to know from Kiato-chan yesterday that I'll be in a different group from my clique. Well...like he said, 1 group apart, and the time table is pretty similar. But I doubt I can hang out with em as often like we used to be.
At least they won't have a spoilsport stuck with em most of the time...
Remember what I told ya yesterday, Kiato-chan...and don't try ta crawl your way outta your responsibility! I'll be watching...
Another Beany video. Yes, I can't believe I'm on a Bean craze nowadays too. This is totally screwing up my image, ya know...and you bet that I don't like it one bit. But the videos are just so damn...*beep* *beep* *BEEEP*
Kwl kwl...everything is kwl. Just that I almost got over pissed just now, for I thought that the dental clinic's pulling an April fool joke on me...despite having reassurance from the lady herself that it's not a prank when I booked an appointment for today...
I don't mind people pulling pranks and stuff on me...so long it doesn't require me to wake up early and do stupid things at my grumpy period...
And of course, there's still a limit on what kind of joke it is...
So I waited for almost half an hour outside the clinic. Not a very long time, but since I've only just got out of bed...I'm still a lil short tempered and not having much patience for almost anything...
Waited and waited...getting frustrated by the minute...and getting hungrier at the same time. As a result, I'm getting more pissed.
Well luckily the dental clinic DID open after half an hour. That sure cleared my doubts of whether I'm screwed or not. Bo bian loh...that's why I'm always on the losing end, for I'm too trusting at times...but I didn't blow my top or anything...I'm still able to succumb my temper. =)
Yes...my craving for Beans had increased recently. Thus, another video of Mr Bean, portraying 3 men who screwed a certain someone's wedding...BIG TIME!
Apparently, I can't sleep...and I went off to Youtube in search for some humor to laugh myself to sleep. Well, I'm yet to feel drowsy...but I'm definitely not disappointed by the video I've watched...
A parody of 300 made out of Bleach. I love it...mainly due to the fact how they have made the Spartans and 11th division so similar to a very large extent, and Kenpachi taking the role of Leonidas, along with great synchronizing throughout the whole video.
It's uber kwl...and you gotta uber love it, especially for Bleach and the 11th division fans...
So tired...my deep slumber has been disturbed time and time again...
Now, I'm shag...pissed...and hungry...
Anyways, the world's pretty tense and dark these few days...so I just wanna tell thy souls, that do cheer up. I dunno what happened, and what will happen, but do stay alive...for only yours truly, ME...have the permit to make the world a darker place for all souls, for at my mercy thee will be...
But...that's not really the point, I may be the worst of soul anyone has ever seen, but I do hope that people around me can spare themselves from any anguish and sadness...
Well, said my part...off to the next phase of my ritualistic slumber...
The result of the specialization is set to be released today, and gladly, I got into animation like I marked down. However, with a GPA of 2.8...I'm not exactly all that please these few days...
True, I managed to maintain my score, which should be good enough...probably I slacked off a lil too much and I didn't get to hit a 3 point mark...but, there's no use pondering over it anymore...
So today, was a pretty long day...
In school to check the results, and then slacked at Koufu...the subject we talked about are pretty broad today...
From crocodiles to alligators...
From dreams to cerebral and physical system...
Talked and blahed before heading off to Angeline's house...kinda hesitant for she might get into trouble for bringing a "not decent" guy, who has long and dyed hair home...I'm not alone of course, but the rest are like so much more decent looking than me...
But I went anyways...
So I tried to be at my best behaviors over there...as in watch my speech and mannerisms...
Fortunately, there ain't really anything that needs me to spew vulgarities at...neither did I go on a "F***ing" spree. That's a relieve. I think I did swear once or twice...but overall, I'm still not getting her into trouble...
Even dinner requires me to be less barbaric like I used to be...well, like I said, it's not so bad trying to be lady-like once in a while...
Anyways, there's a lot of searching and browsing to do over at her house...they're browsing through academies, colleges and universities of art etc...getting ready for 2 years later when everybody graduates...
For the girls, it's no problem...
For the guys, we have to go NS (that's right, no escape...I wished I could run as well...). That 2 years of NS is all we need to forget whatever that's taught to us in the 3 years of Poly...at least part of em, though I sure hope that ain't happening...
That kinda stinks...but bo bian...if you have balls, you jolly well get your head shaved and scram into the camp after whichever education you got yourself into...
So continued searching and chatting...sneezed and hahaed for sometime before going home at around 2200...
I sure hope she seriously doesn't get into any trouble from her family, since it happened before to a friend of mine...
Went over to his house...
We stayed in his room...
He got called out by his mother...
I overheard his mother saying, in Chinese..."Why did you bring such a person back?"
Felt bad about it...
Thus, kinda worried that Angie's gonna have to take some lecturing, will feel so damn guilty sia...
Anyways, thank ya for the hospitality today, Angeline.
So trained and bused back home...luckily. For I thought I can only take train home all the way, which will take like...dunno-how-many-donkey-years...
A big thank you to all my peers, for celebrating my 18th birthday with me. Be it the guys I went out with, or people who wished me a happy birthday via sms, I'd like to express my gratitude here. But I would like to give a slightly bigger thank you to the guys who spent time coming out today and invited me along for the small celebration. A deed that shall be remembered for as long as I live...at least for the following couple of years if I'm still alive till then...
A simple outing with my friends, a simple meal (though expensive...and they rejected my share of the bill...) and a simple stroll around the area, to me is more than enough...I haven't really celebrated my birthday this way since my birthday fell on the March holiday for the past 7 years...
But the bottom line is, I appreciate everything you guys have done for me today...thank you all so much...
Sorry to my peers today for abandoning you all in the middle of the occasion and being such a wet blanket, when it's supposed to be joyous. I know I'm being pretty much of an asshole when I did that. You can curse and swear about me...you may even decide to hate me for the rest of your life as a mood spoiler, I accept em all...for I have nothing much to say to defend myself.
It's all part of me...
When I'm not needed, I'll walk away and isolate myself from the group, especially when I feel that I can't exactly blend into the clique. To me, it's better to feel alone in solitude, rather than in a crowd and your presence is not of any significance...
I'm not blaming anybody for anything, that's how I've always felt, and that's what happened before. People got me into a group, and they just left me alone to fend for myself. Perhaps a grudge from then, and here I am trying to have a lil more initiative?
I dunno...
Thus, I've decided to take the initiative to leave and minimize any damage that shall be dealt, rather than being an eyesore, not only to the public, but to myself as well...
Silence would only bring upon more awkwardness, so I'd rather make a silent exit, and tone things down, while the others can still continue with their routine.
If any of you guys are upset about my behavior, you can drag me out and tell it in my face...I might or might not rebuke, but eventually...I'll accept them as what I deserved...I'm prepared for the worst, I've said it before, you might be considering now whether a soul like me deserves your friendship.
No matter your decisions, so long you think it's the right thing to do, I'll respect em.
I've told myself before not to socialize too much at the start of the orientation, for fear that history might repeat itself again...but it seems like I can't resist the temptation of wanting to make new friends, and I can't help betting my chance with you guys...hopefully I can be friends with you all, true pals like the few I had in previous educations...
If you've decided that I'm a hypocrite...a difficult to be with person...a fraud...and you've decided that this pathetic soul deserves no passion...deserves no respect...deserves no friendship, and have decided to make me lose this bet, I understand...
Just in case you guys wouldn't want to take anymore crap from me...
Thank you...
Thank you all for accepting me as your friend. It's greatly appreciated. But more days are to come, are you able to accept me and my unstable personality on a long term basis? The decision is in your hands...
I'm not treating our friendships lightly...I may not know to what extent I've cherished these friendships, but I have definitely tried my utmost best to treasure em. It's just that I want people to know that they're accepting someone who has an awful past, who has an awful personality, and possibly an awful human being who could probably jinx you out of your life, as a friend.
I've been half a loner for more than a decade, I could be the same probably for the rest of my life, but I want peers who are able to bear with my unstable personality...
Sorry to sound so selfish and all...and once again, I would like to apologize for my behavior earlier today...
Ok, recently I'm trying my best to satisfy my wrestling cravings again. Thus, I went over to the usuals and get myself entertained...and now, I'm gonna share one of my favorite brawls ever...
Oh I just love how resourceful the Texas Rattlesnake can be...
Went over to Green Leaves Medical Center for some "treatment" today...I'd say it's quite soothing, except for the sweating part though...
No, I'm not sick...mum just pulled me down there along with bro.
Over there, you submerge your feet in some herbal formula and the machine will sort of give you a nice massage on your feet. The vibration will then go through your feet and make their way up to your legs. I wonder if it went any further, can't really remember the feel already. But I'd say the vibration's pretty powerful...so power that it might probably give you orgasms......
Err...no no nothing...never mind forget that part...
ANYWAY~~~
Just to be precise, a picture will show ya what the hell is going on there...
Without a doubt, those are my legs all right...
And the physician's pretty good as well. He's got good knowledge regarding your pulses and stuff...well pardon me if almost all physicians are like that, for he's only the 2nd Chinese physician I've ever seen in my life...excluding those who fix your sprains and fractures stuff...that is if you consider them to be physicians also...
From my pulses, he can tell that I have bad temper...well I say that's very accurate. He read it from my pulses, but I'm afraid my temper is almost never good...
There are a couple of stuff he shared with me which I find pretty interesting as well...
Then, nothing exactly interesting happened after that...other than me sweating like a warthog's backside...
ZZZ
Ok...gotta try and sleep early, just to let my body rest, like the physician advised...
I wanna go out with my friends and stuff, but I just suck at organizing things...whenever I arranges a certain *beep*, something most likely will crop up, and it will be super bummerizing...
Nothing's fun at home...
All that's able to accompany me are my laptop and psp...but they can't keep me entertained at a long term basis...
Furthermore, I can't seem to enter Combat Arms normally recently. It just hangs on me upon entering the channel. Only if I'm lucky, can I proceed further...otherwise, I'm trapped...
According to Shanderia da Waffles...today is Emo Day, for DMD Group 3 shall no longer be one anymore due to souls going into different specializations...
Well, everybody will still be under one roof, but it's not gonna be easy to meet as often as before, let alone hanging out with one another...
Some of us maybe will still be grouped together, but losing a member or 2 will take us some time to adapt. Just like Da Familia...in a couple of week's time, we're gonna lose a member, also known as Maria...the "maid" who was deprived of all human rights possible, terminating his 6 years contract with my Sista, and the rest of us...
Bet Sista's gonna miss him like hell when he's gone...
If Maria gone, all that's left in Da Familia is...
Baby Sista, "Fudgeface" Adabelle...
Shanderia da Waffles...
Lil Kiato-chan...Waikay "Cheesecake" Yong Kiat...
"Tohdrive" Angeline...I believe that she's part of the Familia since she SO close with the 3 of em...
And me, Vivian "Anaconda" Antonia...
Oh yeah, Clement's the part time Familia...
Therefore, that's all that is left of the clique...many more souls we know will not be joining us as well. It's kinda sentimental, but everybody's gotta leave eventually, don't they...
Hence, I'm told that people maybe suffering from SES (Sentimenalish Emotic Syndrome)...
Well...life goes on, and it's yet to be the end of the world, for I've yet to toss this world into the chaotic abyss. So people who are depressed over things like this, do cheer up.
Don't worry Sista, Maria's gonna find another owner who will mistreat him as well, so be at ease, for he will continue to be deprived off all human rights...
He's off to a better place...probably...
As a result of this day, I've changed the blog song to Candle Lights by BoA. No particular reasons, just that it sounded emo as well...
The most exciting and anticipated day is finally over...
Stress is no longer a factor...at least for these couple of hours, it's not. What's gonna happen next? I dunno...but I will welcome it with my best of emotions...
I'm glad that the lecturers complimented on my video. There are flaws (DUH~~~), but they didn't condemn me right away as I half-expected. And thank you to all my peers who complimented on my portfolio. I'm flattered, and humbled by you guys. Be it compliment or criticism, I thank you. (No Clement, you don't belong to this category......just kidding! XD)
And MOST importantly...
Thank you to Angeline who came EXCEPTIONALLY early today just to pass me my sketchbook. Her time slot was at 1500, and she reached school at around 0930+/-. I'm so touched...
But I really appreciate it, and sorry for the trouble, when you could have gotten more sleep...
No matter, I'm proud of my work...all of em. Despite the fact that most of my peers have much better works than mine, namely...
*Ahem*... *Ahem*... *Ahem*... *Ahem*... *Ahem*...
There may be more...and I think you know who you are. =P
However, I'm glad for them as well, for all of us managed to pull through, and I believe their scores will not disappoint them...at least not by a big margin. The bottom line is, hopefully everyone's happy...
Well...all souls deserve a good rest from now on. Gotta replenish all the energy that's lost through the months...
Today shall be a day for all to remember...for we've tore down every single possible obstacle before us, and are proceeding to the next step of assessment...an event which will take place in a few hours time.
WOOO~~~
Never felt lighter...managed to clear all assignments in 1 night, and printed everything today...with that, I believe that this semester is officially concluded...all that's left is tomorrow's execution.
Kinda shag...a lil dizzy and all. Damaged inflicted further upon landing my eyes on my friends' works. I feel so sad loh...their standard is so damn higher lah. Emox3 liao...
No matter, a rainbow managed to brighten my day...
No Shan, there are no ponies trotting on the clouds...
So a rainbow fiesta started and we began taking pictures...all of us present, namely...
Baby Sista' (XD)...
Kiato-chan...
Angeline...
Xian the "Maria"...
and Yours Faithfully, the Devil himself...
Kwl, ain't em...
There are 2 actually, with the second one on much lower opacity. Thus, only one can be clearly seen. AND, it's the clearest rainbow I've ever seen in my entire life...so we came up with a theory that we'll score good marks for tomorrow's assessment, credit goes to the rainbow...
Not a bad night for me tonight...for I've enjoyed myself...somehow...
Thanks to the preaching of my peers, and my weak will to succumb over game temptations, I started playing Combat Arms today...a game which I thought I would not touch...
Well...I've gotta admit, I'm not all that please when I just started out. It suck big time getting killed ALL the time, and you don't get to do a shit...
Firstly, my aiming is SO bad that even I just couldn't bear to continue watching.
Secondly, I have no strong FPS game background, neither did I interact with the game before...
These 2 factors are thus why I didn't really want to play the game. Furthermore, you'll drag your team down with ya if you kicked your own bucket too much...and I hate that, regardless of whether my comrades hate me for it or not...
However, I think I got a slight hang of it after a lil while. I managed to land a couple of head shots. I'm happy with that...and I managed to promote from a trainee to a recruit by 1 night. Far from what I've expected.
But most importantly, thank you to my dear friends for cutting me some slacks, allowing me to grasp the game bit by bit...intentionally or not, I thank you.
2 pretty melodious pieces of the song, Heart Of Sword done on piano. Flat out awesome, I would say...
I like the above version pretty much, but I kinda prefer the following version. Unfortunately, it's not a complete piece. I'll be looking forward to it's complete version.
First of all...thank you to Shan for the eyeliner again. The $0.90 that you didn't accept shall go to the next lollipop. Remind me about it. =)
Slight flu today, plus my throat feels sticky and tight...damn super uncomfortable...ahh who cares. Managed to clear more of my animation today, not much, but I'm almost there...hopefully...
OH YEAH! I ATE DURIAN TODAY!
Yes...durian in school...just plain satisfying loh. But the durian/longan ice combo's not really that compatible. However, it's still enjoyable...
THEN~~~
The feeling came again...
Dunno why lah...when Kiato-chan (XD) started to talk about the "Tonight, I celebrate my love for you" song, I sad again liao. No, no...I'm not saying that there's anything wrong with him talking about it. It's just...
DAMN!
Emo loh...
Went home alone, like the way I've always did in the past...
Now...the past events are making their way back to me again...I hate it when it does that......
Wishing a Happy Valentine's Day to all couples, and everybody out there, even if you're still chaste...I mean single...but it's just not a day applicable to me...
Nonetheless, I would like to say this from one person to another, to a lady who is one of the few turning points of my life...a Happy Valentine's Day to you...
Here's a song dedicated to each and everyone of you lovebirds, not forgetting of course those who are still single, and fortunately did not suffer the same fate as I did...
I didn't really noticed that today is Friday the 13th until somebody blurted it out...forgot who though...
No matter, it looks like today's my lucky day, for nothing has really gone wrong. I'm not screwed by anybody, and most importantly, I got my sketchbook back...
Too bad Clement...LOL!
A day which may be the date when my satanic ego is of maximum dominance...the very date when I may find my 3rd victim, or probably...some decent fighter may appear before me...
HOWEVER~~~
The most accursed of dates is only the next day...
For tomorrow...it's Valentine's Day. A freak like me who has never been in a relationship before, and my first love, a feeling which has lasted for 7 years+/- (including this year) being a failure, for I never managed to get any closer to her than friends...the feeling of being single, while others have their moral supporting partners...
It's a pain way too much, even for a masochist like me to withstand...
Geez...
How many more years must I suffer this pain of recalling the one lady who totally caught my attention...but didn't turn out to be someone whom I can share my weals and woes with...
Not that there's anything wrong with that...
After all...I did hurt her once before...the one sin which I could never erase...
Tch...
Anyways...a thank you to Shan for keeping a lookout for an eyeliner like I requested...shall pay ya back for that......
A LOLLIPOP!
Hah...don't worry, I won't let you incur a loss de...
A small reminder to myself and all souls out there, why I've decided to take the path which most wouldn't...the sinful road of a villain...
Though I didn't really carried it out as planned, for I guess...I'm bound by the sins and debts I've accumulated all this while, and I'm currently trying to clear em. Thus, my failure to be the ultimate villain...
No matter, my ambition is still burning within me...as soon as I'm done clearing up my debt for this and my previous life, I shall then unleash all hell!
Now...to you mortals out there, behold...for the reason why evil has been the more dominant force in most aspects of life...shall be revealed...
For the first time in a long while, I felt so threatened...
I myself think that I produce slightly better work when I'm working last minute...sometimes though. But today, quality work ain't the main concern. For today, I'm supposed to produce the storyboard, and receive approval...on the same day, I need to produce the final board.
Failure to do so, you might fail...
Hell...I don't wanna redo this studio project...it's one helluva pain in the arse...
Ok lah...maybe because I lazy, then never really did it at home, but mainly it's to prevent myself from doing double work, for Ms Gail MIGHT need me to make certain changes.
So~~~
I kinda struggled for the rest of the day, as the dateline is set on the day itself, 1700...
As the time draws nearer, I'm still trying my best to finish shading my final board...at wit's end, Xian called Ms Gail for a slight time extension, for my grades' not the only one hanging on a thread. So is lil Sista, Yong Kiat, Angeline, Xian, and Chong Huan.
Luckily, she permitted the time extension. Thus, the new dateline is 1800. Which seems more than enough...when I'm done with the work that is...
So done up with final board...photocopied...asked for Ms Gail's autograph...and I'm safe...somehow, I wish that I am...it's around 1740+/-...
Eventually, we survived...
Tomorrow onwards, it's animation, and designing of CD cover etc...
Gotta sleep as much as I can...though it doesn't really seem possible, but I most definitely gonna need it...
Ok...I'm merely venting my frustrations here. Souls out there don't get offended, for I'm not referring to any of you...
I've had enough of these...
You get pissed over something so trivial, and you begin throwing your temper. You raised your voice at me when I know absolutely nothing, and did absolutely nothing wrong about anything.
True, bro may have tossed something you needed badly. That cost money and you felt a lil pity since we're not rich, and we're trying to reuse whatever we have that does not seems in use. But you do can talk to him about it, can't you? Do you have to rant about it so much that even the opposite blocks know of our issue?
That's just plain ridiculous lah...
Now, the thing is, I didn't know when and how bro got rid of that stuff. But you started questioning me like I'm in the wrong. You should know my temper, I don't like people maligning me, neither do I like people raising their voices at me...if they do, I will definitely not back down without retaliating...
You know that, and I told you before...
Yet?
You gave me the look I despised the most. What are you trying to prove, huh? You're the monarch of this household, so it's just for you to throw your weights around?
I shot back, you will start making it looks like I'm in fault for standing up for myself. But if I remain silent, you assume that I'm afraid...that I'm weak...that I'm a loser to you, and you will continue acting like the dowager.
I bet with you lah...
If dad was here, you WOULDN'T DARE to do all these things. If fact, you would even wanna reconsider you actions. I bet my life on it.
You may be the wife of Wan Poh Weng, and may think that you can turn nasty on anyone who pisses you off...
Well lemme tell you this now...
I'm the SON of Wan Poh Weng, and I will not hesitate to strike anybody who gets on my nerve. I've got the urge to do so on ya before, don't think I'll hold back forever...so don't fucking push your luck. Think people will back down when you turn nasty, I WON'T!
Try me...
I may not outfight you because I'm your son after all, and my bros will side you for sure de, but I am certain that I will not back down without a fight. Cos, I'm no longer the weak lil kid prone to your scoldings and beatings...
