Super bad day...

I've been wondering for quite some time now...

WHAT THE HELL DID I EAT?!

Today is one helluva busy day...not doing work, but running in and out of the toilet damn it...I literally woke up at around 0500, and slept in freaking toilet. Ok lah...half asleep lah. All I know is when I walked out, the clock showed around 0540...

Zzz...

I stayed in the freaking loo for 40 god damn minutes. Super sian sia. That's my first...but not last trip. I have been running in and out ever since the start of the day.

Kinda frustrated...but how to vent your frustration of having heavy toilet breaks...

I can't punch the wall or the door...it'll make matters worse...

I can't headbutt my cabinet...lest it becomes more troublesome...

I can't curse and swear...well I did but I think my mother kinda got a lil irritated...

I can't cut or hurt myself...should I get carried away in doing so, so will my bowels...

SEE?!

So I vent my frustration here loh...super super SUPER bek cek lah. I can't recall what combo meal I had yesterday to land myself in such deep sh......never mind...

Kimochi warui...

Train train train...

Haven't woke up early like today for a long period of time...

Went to Tampines gym with Arjunan. Attained quite a lot of things through the workout today...

Firstly, I've learnt of such promotion that you can pay $0.30 for an extra bottle of 100 plus for being a nice guy...

Secondly...going to gym can only attain 1 thing...STRENGTH AND MUSCLES! Ok lah...I haven't really expand any muscles I have, but I do feel the strain and the POWER coursing through me...it's shiok de loh...

The third thing I attained...

Finally...I'm able to endure the strong sunlight of the afternoon without my shades! I guess I will have no problems withstanding the sunlight as time passes...

Anyway...gotta love the workout...

100 sit-ups with legs elevated as normal...but unfortunately not for the weight lifting machines. DAMN! They are much heavier than Damai ones lah, or maybe it's just that I've weakened. No matter...I found my favourite machine in the gym, didn't really catch it's name...but it's a 3 in 1 training equipment, all of which I wanna train...biceps, chest and......can't remember...but I can confirm that I like that piece of machine a lot...

Next week maybe gonna go again, then go swim.

Come to think of it...I believe my swimming trunks can no longer fit......

Random videos

More videos from Youtube...5566 on a game show with Jacky Wu and Sweety...and some other random celebrities...

Well wishes

Arj told me that Mayce was hospitalized yesterday due to a swelling blood vessel in her head...that's what I'm told. But all is fine this morning...I'm notified that she's discharged from the hospital...

I'm just glad that she's fine...

All I could say is "Rest well". My bad...I can't seem to think of any better lines than that...I'm kinda bad at that...

No matter, gonna head for Arj's house later with Andy. And tomorrow is scheduled to be my cousin's...son I think...1 month of 12 days celebration I forgot which one is it...all I know is that I'm kinda busy now...still chionging some drawings...and I don't even know if they will be accepted into my next portfolio.

Off to survive another day I guess...

Cherish...

Cherish...too is a virtue...an important one...

Taking good care of a certain thing or person, and appreciate it's presence at all times. It's truly a wonderful feeling, especially for the appreciated. However, normally the tasks ain't carried out properly.

Typical mortals...

We only cherish things and people when they're gone. And when they are gone for good, we begin to blame ourselves for not spending time to appreciate that particular someone or something...

It applies more on people though. Relationships...be it friendship, kinship or b/r relationship...people tend to take them for granted, believing that their bond is strong, nothing can tear em apart, and they hoped for the best...

That, is the worst way to end a relationship...

There's this boy I know...

His father doted on him...the father got the boy almost whatever he wanted. That's when the boy was still very young. The boy really loved his dad.

When the boy grew older, the father fell seriously ill. Therefore, the father was unable to work, and was to stay at home...

There were times when the father called in the lil boy to accompany him for a lil while...just a lil while, and talk to him...the lil boy actually rejected the idea and chose to watch TV over keeping his dad company. The father was upset...very upset...

After some time, the father's health deteriorated and was hospitalized for some time...the lil boy can only watch as his father's fighting his illness. He wanted to apologize to his father for not accompanying him at times...but he didn't......

Despite his remorse...he still didn't stayed with his father. Instead, he went to play...

One day...the lil boy gotta go to school from the hospital after staying there overnight. The lil boy waved to his father and said " bye bye". The father waved and replied with a smile.

Halfway through school, the lil boy's mother came to pick him up and rushed to the hospital...

The lil boy reached the hospital...

He went to the his father's ward...

The curtain was drawn around his father's bed...

There were cries...

The lil boy walked through curtains...

His father was stationary...his abdomen is not moving, he's not drawing in any air...he's not breathing...

The lil boy cried...he regretted not apologizing when he got the chance. He regretted not spending time with his father when he had the opportunity...all he could do was to apologize with tears and chokes.

Did the words reach his father? I don't know...

But I do know...

The lil boy really regretted his actions...and up till this day, he still can't forgive himself for not cherishing his father...he's own father...

The message I'm trying to convey is...

Cherish every single person you have marked as a part of your life. Your parents...your siblings...your other half...hold onto them and cherish them. Don't lose them and start to regret how you should have cherished em...you can make amendments for some cases...but for the other cases......when they are gone for good, you've lost your chances as well...

Even when you can't find a reason to cherish the other party...do appreciate the effort the other had put in to cherish you...to be part of you...you may not have any regrets, but they do...don't let their appreciation go unnoticed...

Just spend more time with each other...at least a sms that showed that they still have their place in your heart.

I would say that I may not do those things listed above...but I guarantee...I'm gonna cherish every single soul that crosses my path...

Blood...more blood...

Kya...guess what man...

I cut my finger for the 2nd time! Woo! *Claps* Ok...the cut ain't exactly like the cut I had previously, it's more like...small ones, but multiple cuts.

Since I was bored and I've done my chin-ups for the day, I sat down and started playing with my brother's shaver. Not the buzzer electric type de, is those old school type one. So I started to slide my finger along the blade, not once, not twice, not thrice...but I did that continuously as I listened to some music.

Didn't feel anything but the blade loh...so I assumed it's ok, therefore I continued sliding my finger across the blade. Finally when I stopped, I looked at my finger and I see 3 white lines. Those are the skin that came off. Next, I squeezed my finger and guess what...

The blood oozed out from the three open wound. Lol quite funny to see the blood coming out like that.

Since the quantity ain't as much as the previous one, I observed the wound some more before slurping on the blood. The wound ain't deep so the wound is clean on the 1st attempt. Then I squeeze again, and the blood oozed out again.

Damn fun sia...

Don't believe you go take 1 shaver regardless the brand and slide your finger parallel to the blade. You won't feel a thing de. Even if you bleed, you won't feel pain until you start fondling with the wound.

Hehe...omoshire...

But unfortunately it's a super easy dry up wound. So I have nothing to play with now...

Sian...

No matter, you guys can give it a try...it's the way to bleed if you dislike pain. It's kinda easy to heal...now I see my finger like nothing already. However, not advisable for people who seek to end their life though. Doing so will take you an eternity before your blood runs dry on you...

Ahh forget it...don't try this at home...

Cats...felines...kitten......pussy?

A couple of videos to share with you guys. Real interesting videos of cats doing stunts and stuff that you wouldn't see them do in their daily routine...

Round 1: Cat VS Printing machine...



The following video is a classic. Hell I can't stop laughing while watching this video. Some referred to the cats as poor things. I kinda agree, but it's still sorta funny to watch...I gotta say...the kwlest cat video of all time, or at least among those that I've watched...

Ignore the corny opening like the video mentioned...

Testimonial

A pretty rush day if you ask me...

I'm a super carefree guy like any of those lying in their coffin and slept for all eternity...that is until I woke up at 1530...

I dunno what gotten into me...I finally have the urge to collect my testimonial today. So I woke up and I went for a bath immediately after finishing washing up, since I didn't know...or forgot what time my school's admin office closes.

So there I am back at Damai...and the moment I walk in the first familiar face I saw was Mrs Chan. We talked a bit before proceeding to clear my quest.

When the lady in the admin office asked what class I am, for a moment I actually couldn't remember which I came from sia...super sad. No matter, I still got it done. Walked around the school hoping to see more familiar faces. Saw Benjamin and Haniff playing table tennis. That is when I learnt that CCA stand down already.

Damn sian...

So nothing left to do, since the whole school's like so quiet and empty, I doubt I'll bump into anyone anyways. Go home loh...

Read the testimonial on the bus...

THEY TYPED IN THE "H" FOR MY NAME!

The first 2 appearances of my name showed no such error, but the subsequent appearances revealed the mistake...zzz

No matter, some points listed in the testimonial are kinda doubtful sia...

"Good-natured and sociable"...highly in doubt...

"Alert and attentive in class"...don't wanna admit it, but it ain't 100% correct...

"Good reasoning ability"...maybe...

"Copes well with pressure"...err...no comments...

"Able to think quickly on his feet"...I wonder...

"Attendance is regular"......oro?

"Receptive to advice and suggestions"...only if they are good...

"Self-less"...only in fights...

Under the CCA paragraph, nothing is wrong, but besides being responsible for the training, discipline and morale of the, then, Sec 3 cadets, I'm also responsible for torturing them to the inch of their lives...

The last part is kinda...wrong also...

"Pleasant"...nah...

"Diligent"...nah...

"Friendly"...nah...ask Ming De if you don't believe me...

"Sociable"...nah...ask Ming De about this also...

I mean...just look at my face...does it reflect on all the given points above? I only know that I'm emo-tic...sadistic...satanic...I owe a lot of people a lot more than just an apology...I'm sinned...I'm hated...yet to be a full-fledged evil being, but I believe I'm almost there...

SEE?! How different are those points...

Tch...guess the person typing this is too kind. But the testimonial is for your employer to view is it? So why bother...

Never mind...all these doesn't matter anymore...

Anime seiyuu...

Many...or should I say everybody should know how does anime work right?

No doubt.

People seldom sees the seiyuu (voice actor) behind the characters, only hearing their voices. But no matter, we should be able to distinguish a seiyuu's voice out from a crowd, especially if they do their trademark lines...or something like that.

Some videos found of these workers recognized through their voice rather than their looks.

Firstly...to all who watched Bleach, after watching the video, you should know that it ain't made up. Aww...gotta like Hanatarou...you will hardly, and I mean HARDLY, encounter a male with such cute voice...





Pretty kwl huh? That ain't all I'm gonna show...

Next up, for all Narutards out there...including myself. This video isn't a long one, but it's content proved to everybody once and for all that it ain't a fluke either...



Lastly...the cuddly lil animal which is loved by many...

PIKACHU!

The woman doesn't look kinda up to it, but believe it or not...she's the real deal...



Subarashi desu ne...

Happy? Perhaps...

Results for semester 1 is out! And guess what?!

I've passed em all!

But unfortunately the highest score I've acquired is B, and I've scored that for most of my modules. So should I feel happy about my results or what.

Maybe I should be satisfied about the fact I clinched at least a C for the lowest score I have, and that's 2 grades higher than borderline pass. Perhaps I'll just have to work on some of my modules at home and try to improve em if it's possible...

But what caught my attention was the credit for graduation...I've scored super low below the required number. I wonder what does that mean sia...better not be something bad...

No matter...back to sleep...

Again...

Big bro's gonna fly on Thursday again. For how long? I dunno...all I know is that...

I'm taking over the entire room again!

Although the desktop ain't working, but hell, I've got the entire desk to myself rather than that small round table I'm using now...and the big office chair is definitely better than my broken spine chair...

Boo...all I get are crappy equipments...

Why have I agreed to merge my bedroom with his in the first place, and converting the other room into a study room...I've even tossed away 2 of my tables because of this change sia...

Wah piang...kinda wished for my own room now. Like that I wouldn't have to worry about loading the one and only table with stuff...

No matter...the trip this time better not cock up at any aspects...

Gathering

Just came back from Arjunan's place for a gathering. Although I didn't know most of em, but I became quick friends with some of em.

Luckily there's still some familiar faces...

Arjunan, the host definitely, Andy, Jun Wei, Jhin Chee, Heng Chang. That settles the Damai NCC. Then there's some of Arjunan's friends. Pardon me for not able to remember some of their names, despite me interacting with them. There's Angeline, Mayce, Vanessa, Joshua, Lin Ming (I think is like that spell bah), Eric and many many more.

Warui...I can't seem to bring up anymore names.

Anyways...thanks a lot to those guys for inviting me to their lil party. I didn't help much since Andy's the one cooking and I seemed to be more of a hindrance than help. But it's really enjoyable to have so many people gathering together.

No mahjong, no dai dee, but it's still fun.

Oh and I just visited Jon's blog...

Thanks a bunch bro...I have been unreasonable to you and many other people at times and yet I'm still listed as one of your good pals. I really, really appreciate it.

The pictures he posted are pretty nostalgic. I saw how cute he was when he's much younger, and how innocent Jun Jie's face was during Sec 1.

Lol...an eternal nemesis of Cheng Khim Kiang...I couldn't agree more. I began to remember times when both of us kept bickering and fighting (petty fights by the way). And I noticed how nerd I was during that time...I see le also buay ta han...but there's something else that completely attracted my attention. I believe Jon knows the answer...

Then the Sec 4 photo again...Jon even gave some of us an elemental attribute, or something like that. He labeled me as lightning which harshly strikes everything. Hah...I thank you for that.

Xue Qian, Wee Ming, Jun Jie and our dear Ming De are mentioned as well. Haven't met those guys for a long time too...

Once again, I would like to thank Arjunan and gang for inviting me to their parties, and pardoning my uncalled for attitudes...if I had any...and thank you to Jonathan for the encouraging words of acknowledging me as one of his good pals...

I appreciate it a lot...

Oops...

A wish considered granted...

Finally finished watching Diamond Dust Rebellion...although it's kinda disappointing that Kenpachi didn't kick much ass this time, but he took off his eye patch, that's worth watching. You won't see him unleashing his full power like that regularly...

Feel so shiok now...just like after a seafood buffet...

Did some push ups and pull ups after that...I gotta say that I've slacked too much...30+ push ups already ki buay soon liao. I mean...the last time I did push up is my last NCC training before stepping down. Is it? Ahh around there lah...so it's been...1 year+?

DAMN!

Gotta use this holiday opportunity to train also...

But it's sorta a different issue when you snap a key after a workout. Yeah, that's what happened...and I seriously doubt that I'm that fit to snap...AND I MEAN SNAAAP THE BLOODY KEY!

Believe it or not...that's my doing...it's indelibrate though.

Just imagine a key already inserted inside a key hole, and when you happen to pass by, your hand just knock against the part of the key that's sticking out...and "poop"...

The head fell off...with the body still stuck inside the god damn hole...

DAMN!

I wished I could do that to a human. Just a single sweep across the neck...severing the head from the body. Hehe...omoshire...if that's not enough...

ZEN RYOKU DEN TATAKAI TE WA YOSA SO DA!!!

That's gonna break the entire body into many...many...pieces...

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Yeah yeah...daydreaming about killing off some random jackass again...tch...these things never stop coming to my mind eh? Who cares anyways...

Oh yeah...bro finally came back...with some beer. That's quite a relieve. Ho...and he said something about not needing to pay tax when you buy beer overseas...

Hontoni?

Hah...perhaps I should go on a vacation and get myself some beer as well...but for now, maybe I'll just sneak a can of beer for myself...nah maybe 2...

DAMN SIAN!

Diamond Dust Rebellion is finally out!

But...my desktop's down...laptop is giving me loads of problems...and my bro's laptop ain't got a bittorrent device! So...no movies for now...

Super bek cek lah...waited for months and months for the movie to be subbed and all I get is tons of stupid issues with my laptop...hence I can't even connect to the internet properly at times. Damn fed up loh. Imagine that you're stuck at home and you can't even go onto the god damn internet...irritating right?

Now my laptop is laggier...slower and have lesser frequency of connecting to the internet...

RAWR!

Haven't got so pissed off for quite some time...over a machine some more...

Ahh...how long do I have to endure the days without proper internet connection and laggy loading?! I lack patience damn it...

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Where's my sledgehammer when I need it...a chainsaw would be fine...

Moon! Tell me you motherfuc...

If it was me when I'm at the lowest of moods, I would listen to this song for the rest of the month to say the least...

DATTE!

I think...and I hope...that this is my last time to go emo over some issues. That settles most of my weak side...at least that's my resolve, I don't know if it'll work...

Why?

Heh...because I believe that I've retrieved what's missing of my sadistic ego...at least part of it.

I hate a certain someone to the very core of my soul...a super pain in the ass...but thanks to her, I'm able to complete my evil resolve...or at least that's what I thought...

1 slap is all it takes to recover my satanic mindset...

Although the time ain't exactly right for such things to happen...but it did. When an imbecile stumbled upon your lair at the least expected hour...I believe regardless the person, he/she would just whoop that sorry son of a bitch...

Hah...the fun have only just began...to find myself in the middle of the night...kinda suits me...

Tsuki yo...oshiete kure kono ya ro...KOTAIRU! *Middle finger*

Ho? Guess I'm losing my sanity eh? Who knows...but how do I say it...HAH I LOVE IT!

Mendokuse na...

A holiday like this can only mean 1 thing...

Doing nothing and rot...

Therefore...I have tried to figure out a new hairstyle for myself for literally the entire day...and what did I get? Nothing...

Bathe early in the morning and after that I've spent almost the whole day in front of my mirror changing my hairstyle umpteen times...seems like there's not much variety for long hair except for tying it up...

Tried a lil spiking...apparently it doesn't work...

So at the end of the day...I accomplished nothing...but don't get me wrong. I'm not cutting my hair anytime soon...at least not within these few weeks...

Well...1 hairstyle do work I think...but it'll be kinda weird for me to apply that hairstyle when I'm out...


Too much Bleach I guess...but I'm kinda motivated to get this hairstyle after watching the Rock Musical Bleach. Although the guy playing Kenpachi is wearing a wig (DUH?! o_O), but it'll be quite a challenge to make this hairstyle on REAL hair.

I tried tying the hair into individual spikes. It's......so so, I think all that's left is some super strong gel...super glue might be the most ideal...

Maybe I'll try on this hairstyle for 1 day and see things for myself...

Something is about to go very wrong...

Nostalgic? I dunno...

Just finished tidying up my shelf...out of the entire room......

Ah what do you expect...if I would clear up everything in a day...pigs would fly damn it...

Loads of stuff...some magazines, dictionaries, comics, my Poly stuff. Of course, some remnants of my Secondary school memories...good and bad.

Textbooks and guide books...I hate em...

Exercise books with most of my exercises marked with either a big cross or a big question mark...heh...kinda missed those days of defying the teachers...

Newsletters...well...kinda wanna relive the fun events back then. "O" Levels definitely doesn't fall into that category...

Next, my Sec 4 class photo. I missed those guys...it's been a long time since I last met most of em. I haven't went back to Damai since the last NCC training of my underlings where they will step down and prepare for the "O" Levels. There's plenty of time now in hand...but I'm not motivated to go back...

Maybe cause I don't wanna give Mr Cho or any other teachers to tease me of anything? I wonder...

Finally...the most taboo of all things...the year books and Sec 2 photo. More faces that I haven't met in a very long while...I realized that this photo is the only picture I have actually smiled. I believe that I finally know the real reason why...

Due to a certain incident...most smiling faces in those pictures are now frowning at me...a pathetic incident...a mistake made from my traumatic past...the decision which ended a lot of friendship from what I had then...my weak mindset hurt a lot of people...and she's one of them...

I wished that I could make amendments...I wished that I could make them feel better...I wished that I could ask for one more chance...

But the damages are done...it can't be reversed, neither can it be undone.

I know that it ain't as sincere to text it down...but I believe that I no longer have the courage to face any of you guys...neither can I say it face to face...let alone her...

To all whom I've done wrong to...I'm sorry...

I don't know if you guys will ever forgive me...but I'm alright with it. I don't mind being blamed and hated for my actions. But I ask of you all...if you guys were to forgive me...please erase me along with the incident from your mind...I don't wish to be the source of unhappiness when you guys think back of Secondary school memories...

To Stelene...I'm glad that you didn't accept me in the past. It hurts...but I'm kinda relieved as well. If not...I really wonder what can I say to you under such circumstance...

All I can say now...

I'm sorry...

I'm sorry...

I'm sorry...