For the first time in dunno-how-long...I felt that I'm a thorough loser...
I've always thought that I'm up for any challenges. I've even adopted a "take no bullshit" philosophy...however, today I've only seen my pathetic side.
A teacher caught me for something. Normally, I thought that I would just confront him/her and sort things out. But what I did today is total contrary to my resolve...I looked on at him as he exited the school, but I didn't walk up to him and reason things out.
I'm at fault perhaps...but on a second thought, I'm not really in any wrong.
I didn't realize what happened until a period of time passed. I've betrayed my philosophy to take no bullshit and shall reason things out whether I'm in the right or wrong or neutral...in the end, I just let him slipped past thinking that I'm definitely in the wrong...
Such a fucking wimp...and the utmost failure...
Now that I think of it...I've never actually succeeded in doing well in a lot of things...
Academic results...
Relationships. Be it family, friends or love...
Horrible failures that reflected only how weak I am. I thought I'm someone who could easily take on challenges, regardless whether they are good or bad...it looks like all I saw today is my rotten guts...
Why did someone like me even exist in the first place...I really wonder...
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